By the way…

My FanFiction story ‘Count Your Blessings’ won! Twice! I was stupid excited. As in I yelled and cried and had a coughing fit.

I have not won anything since high school for creative writing. This was pretty fun. I wrote a Dramione fanfic based off of this aesthetic.

I fell in love with this particular picture because of the Bing Crosby record. A record my grandparents had and that was played over Christmas.

Happy Holidays everyone and thank you for voting! I was so surprised and feel so amazed that the fic has been so well received.


Thanksgiving Day!

I know I am sorry it’s late. It’s been crazy around here.

For Thanksgiving we traveled to Loveland to visit friends. It was a fun drive and my hair showed up for the day 😂Hermione Granger hair ahoy!

We had the food wrapped in a thermal blanket and amazingly after all the time spent in bumper to bumper traffic it was still warm by the time we got there (hour and a half) thank you I-25

There was a pup dog, the hubby was very very happy! As you can see was the pup dog 🐕

But really it’s all about food. There was a lot of it and it was yummy 😋

There was homemade pie and cream. So, so, so good. I didn’t make the pie, this beauty did! Thank you Diane. We had a blast and ate too much and it was fabulous.

A fun Thanksgiving with friends. I hope everyone had a wonderful day with family and friends too.


Life begins ❤️

So my sister who is one of the strongest and chillest person I know decided to give me a taste of what it must be like for her with all my medical drama.

At 37 weeks she was diagnosed with preeclampsia and admitted to hospital. Her husband is deployed so our cousin headed down. Everything seemed normal, they started meds, and I had just gotten a text she was doing great.

Three minutes later my heart plummeted to my stomach when I received a text that she was being rushed into an emergency c-section.

Why? Well, all I was told was she was bleeding out. So, I sat and waited until an hour later when I was told my niece was okay. (This morning I learned they actually couldn’t find a heartbeat when she was born but is good now!) but I knew nothing about my baby sister!

It was another two hours before I got a text that she was still in the OR and a half hour after that when I was told she was okay.

The sheer terror was Un describable and my heart goes out to my poor brother in law who was on a ship as this all went down. I am so grateful she was in a large Military hospital and already had an epidural when her placenta tore.

Here is the little trouble maker! Meet Amelia! She will share alternating thanksgiving birthdays with me and hopefully like pumpkin pie.

6lbs 11oz and 19 inches of cute new baby smell.

Mother and baby are happy and healthy. So today I am thankful for modern medicine and the fact that they admitted my sister so she was already in hospital when things went pear shaped.

My sister has the kind of love stories you think are only found in fairy tales. She met Tom when she was still in middle school, at 13 she found her soul mate.

She is also a military wife who just went through all that drama with her soul mate on deployment.

So, Amelia will join my other adorable niece Natalie and a family of three is now a family of four.

Yes, Natalie is that adorable all the time!

So, cheers to the couple that taught me true love is real and the strongest woman I know.

Love you guys. ❤️

Well, that was scary.

After a week of cuddling with sick kiddos

I got sick too! Thank you autoimmune.

Oh well, it is worth it. They may be sick but cuddle time wins me over every single time. I wasn’t going to not cuddle the kiddos.

The candy bar gets me, it really really gets me.

All good things however come to an end. Thursday afternoon I remember getting out of the van, and that is it. I woke up on the floor of our bedroom with my chest breaking as my husband tried to keep me alive.

This led to 24 hours of pure hell.

If you live in Aurora, stay away from the Medical Center of Aurora. It’s super busy, the doctors love to make assumptions, and they never have enough nurses.

I am home now in misery since they didn’t treat my pain at all and have been crying for over 24 hours.

Lesson learned here: avoid CPR after open heart surgery at all costs. I am not a depressive person and spending this much time this high on the pain scale is pushing me to the brink of what I can withstand.

We have no idea why my heart stopped or if it will happen again.


Even more upsetting they never did an echocardiogram, contacted any of my specialists, had a cardiologist see me, or even contact my PCM.

They also put a central line in when my INR was not therapeutic and would not bridge me to prevent a clot.

Worst hospital experience ever.

Tricks or Treats

We decided to explore Washington Park in Denver tonight with the kids for Halloween 🎃 this is an area of Denver that I drool over. The houses are incredible. No two are really the same. Most were built between 1930 and 1960 and usually updated in the 90s to present. It’s an eclectic mix of architecture and style.

Basically, my dream neighborhood.

It’s streets of modernism, old brick, and craftsman style homes with stunning unique features at every turn. These are the houses we used to tour when I was a kid with my Nana with the Heritage Society in my home town.

Viewable from the street I offer for your enjoyment ‘Ronald McDonald goes to Washington’ by Brian Moore.

There was a Crystal chandelier in this house that left me breathless.

It was like I had been transported to Stars Hollow. With free books!

And safety signs Taylor would be proud of!

My two Little’s had a blast! And got a ton of candy we now have to ration and hide.

(The glow necklaces were handed out at one of the houses!)

Batman and Batgirl had so much fun!

So, if you are ever in Denver for Halloween, we highly suggest Washington Park. Just park on a street and start exploring. Everyone is friendly and if you’re lucky 🍀 they might still be handing out adult beverages along with candy.

Yeah, that happened! Pretty sure the scotch was older than me. 😂 The bartender was a lawyer, allegedly.

I think they felt sorry for the freezing California girl begging for info on the World Series on Oxygen.

My costume was called FREEZING!!! It was in the 40s!

These two did not care. The things we do for kids!

I hope everyone had a happy and safe Halloween.



Time of our lives!

Last night was by far the most fun we as a family can remember having, ever! Elitch Gardens hosted us for their ‘Fright By Night’ and we had so much fun we are still on a high this morning.

If you can make it out for this event in Denver! Go, do it, it’s an absolute must!

We took our five and seven year olds and although we missed the ‘family day’ part as we got there around six thirty at night, it worked out fine.

We didn’t tell them where we were going. I missed the screaming as we arrived as I jumped out for the will call ticket line.

Don’t let the crowds at the gates scare you away. The park is huge, broken down into sections, and did not feel at all crowded to us once inside.

Friendly Tip!

Stop in at Guest Relations. It’s just past the entrance and to the right.

They measure your kiddos and give them hand bands you can show ride operators with their height and also write your phone number on if your kids are like mine and will walk off with strangers.

The kids loved this guy so much they had to say goodbye, he also hands out goody bags with candy and glow sticks. Made their night!

I have no idea how I did NOT know this but Daddy actually gets seasick on rollercoasters.

Sorry Daddy!

But in true ‘kids first’ spirit he sucked it up and went on every coaster they ran to. And my daredevil kids started the night out with a bang.

We thought for sure after the Boomerang they would want to go to Kiddy Land.

We were oh so very wrong.

Next was the Star Flyer where my daughter waved her hands in the air and sang ‘Party in the USA’ 17 stories high above Denver.

They gave their flight a big thumbs up!

But wait…

Remember this is a ‘Fright Fest’ if your kids (or you) don’t wish to have random clowns 🤡 walk up to frighten you there is a ‘no scare band’ for you and the kids at Guest Relations.

My kids found the scary costumed employees hysterical. So we were good. Not going to lie, the clown gave me the chills.

Also, take the time to read some of the tombstones, they are awesome! We couldn’t leave without going on the huge wooden coaster. It’s called Twister II The kids were running to it as soon as they heard it go by! (It is very loud) This is where our VIP bands came in and saved the night. It was the longest line and that purple band meant we could go up the exit ramp for all the major attractions.

If you want to hit all the coasters, this would be worth the price in my opinion. We were grateful for them. They load you very quickly and it saves a ton of time. And the kids loved the coaster! Poor seasick Daddy, not so much!

We rode a few more rides and decided it was time to eat. I was rather impressed with the Food Court. It was efficiently all in one spot and had options for everyone. Even vegetarians! The kids, of course, got Pizza! Which I must say was yummy! We took pity on Daddy after a rather twisty ride and headed to Kiddy Land Jude was a big fan! Sadly though on the none ‘family’ rides; Lenna was highly disappointed. Only seven and she was too tall!Sorry kiddo. Maybe you will thank me when you get a basketball scholarship. We had to end the night when this little stinker jumped on a ride behind our backs right as the park was about to close. The ride operator gave us a yell that Jude had slipped on, so we sent sissy after him, and had a stern talk with our five year old that he couldn’t just jump on a ride without permission.

Huge props to the ride operator for noticing him and flagging us down. We were walking towards a different ride and assumed he was with us!

My overall impression of this park is that you get your money’s worth. It’s clean and has great employees. There was enough going on that any age group could find something they would enjoy. Plus, with so many sections and activities, the crowds were dispersed nicely.

Again, I suggest the Rapid Ride VIP bands if you are wanting to hit all the big coasters. However, you can’t use them for smaller rides so if you are going to be just in Kiddy Land don’t bother.

I love that you can get bracelets to NOT be scared. I also appreciated the bands with the kids heights and our phone number on them if they got lost.

I was impressed with the food options and you can bring in your own water bottles, which will save you a lot of money.

It was a ‘lifetime memory’ kind of night. Thank you Elitch Gardens for the memories. Plus, any place that can wear these two out is worth every penny in my book.

We would definitely go again!

Look into the season passes if you live in the area, I think they would serve your family well and the price seemed very reasonable.

Y’all know what happens when you ASSuME things….

Saw my hematologist today (blood Doctor) this morning. He’s awesome and we love him. He took the time to explain some things about the procedure next Thursday.

He called it a swan cath. Some things I knew, you have to be awake, going through my right jugular with some cool camera, taking the pressure. Okay, yep, I was in the know. It’s gonna suck and I go home. But…. suddenly, he started telling me what to expect with what they find in the procedure. Apparently, if the clots in my lungs are large or unstable, the whole game changes. If I do have a clot in my valve, again, the whole game changes.

I don’t know how I didn’t connect all these dots, but if 1+2=3 I go home with a future surgery date. But if 1+2=8 I could go directly to being hospitalized again and do not get to pass go.

Best case: the clots are small, stable, and I am getting enough blood flow to my lungs that NOTHING has to be done. My internal pressure in my heart is good and the valve looks fine and clot free. They have a clearer picture of what is going on thanks to the dye; and we shake hands and I go on with my life.

However, since we know I rarely if ever am ‘best case’ girl. (I am quoting the doctor here) he’s expecting I will need surgery. How soon? He’s not sure.

So, we know nothing until the 26th and I am just going to file that under worry later.

I saw my pain doctor at the spine clinic, average visit.

Fielded calls over a procedure we had to move four times, no problem.

Returned to the cancer center for them to fail to get enough blood out of me and still get my finger stuck. Sure, fine, whatever. I got to see Pharmacist Patrick whose pretty cool and have a chat. Sweet of him to work me into his schedule. It’s just time ticking by.

Let’s talk about the next assumption that was made recently.

November 13th and the Portland VA.

This seemed fishy to me when the hubby said it. As the days went by and NOTHING came through in writing I really started to question this date. First, I believe nothing of what I hear from Uncle Sam and half of what I read. There are NO written orders. Could we still have to be in Portland by Nov 13th? Absolutely. But until I see this in writing, I am working off the ‘fake news’ reality. It takes Uncle Sam 2-3 months to scratch an itch.

Laugh it up but anyone whose worked for Uncle Sam knows this is true!

I personally think this ‘transfer’ will be around December (at the earliest) and we will be here for November.

This changes rather a lot with my medical chaos so I am very hopeful we have ‘something’ in writing before I see my primary care doc this Friday. Optimistic of me? Very. But what am I if not a dreamer?

All of this is why I am making this face today.

Just one day, ONE day without chaos would be fantastic.

Oh, and I still made it to Physical therapy and did seven miles on the bike.

On Wednesday we wear pink!

Got the kiddos from school and am now ready for bed, because tomorrow is chest injection day. If it’s anything like last time, it is going to suck. Majorly.

But I am a mom, so back to forcing children to do homework, laundry, dishes and dinner I go.

Mad props to anyone else trying to juggle medical drama with family and work. I just barely had time to edit and post a chapter last night and can’t imagine how some of you manage all this and still work full time.